I have spent the last five years sick. Unable to do even a quarter of what I used to. I’m raising a beautiful 15-year-old daughter pretty much by myself. I have not worked for eight months. it sucks and I sooooo miss working.
I have a rare cyst/tumor in my brain and there is no treatment other than brain surgery. Not many doctors know anything about my condition except just a few...unfortunate for me they are very far away. It is in the deepest part of my brain. No one will touch it except the ones so far away.
I’ve only told a handful of people of my condition but I came clean the other day after my MRI revealed it is growing again. People apparently think I’m lazy, (even my own family who I now rarely speak to) I just don’t want to work, that I’m just wanting to live off child-support and the system. I look ok so I must be fine right?
The other day I set the record straight that I’m so much stronger than people know!! One day in my shoes... that I can barely walk in because my dizziness is so bad, they would all get it. Alongside the dizziness I always feel like I’m going to pass out, my body pain is horrible, I can barely drive due to double vision and I have 24/7 headaches. Not a typical headache. Not a migraine. Worse. It is a headache that cannot be put into words. Feels like my head is going to explode. Nothing but pressure. No amount of medication helps.
I did not set the record straight because I feel is anybody’s business and I generally don’t give a crap what other people think but I’m sick of the gossip, lies, and I’m sick of the assumptions. I’m anything but lazy. I DO NOT FEEL GOOD!
This is why I’m strong. I have fought a silent battle for over 4 years that most couldn’t handle for 4 hours. It is not for the weak. Never judge a book by its cover.